running roller coaster

Is it time for Eugene yet?

As I enter the final stretch of marathon training and am knee/neck/head deep (though probably underwater…) in peak training, all I want to do is toe the line. I have no idea if I’m ready, but at this point, I just want to race.

These last few months of training have been nothing short of a roller coaster. I’ve had fantastic runs where I’m smiling the whole way, and others where I’ve pulled over to cry into my frozen hands. And that’s what’s most frustrating: I’m hardly able to predict how I’m going to feel from one training week to the next. Sometimes work keeps me up past midnight. Some nights I just don’t sleep well. Other times I can’t turn down seeing friends. Or it’s snowing out. Or it’s cold. Windy. I’m hungover. Or in Costa Rica. Whatever. But no matter what, I still run.

And lately I’ve felt like crap, but instead of trying to figure out why, I just keep going through the motions. I went on a 10-mile tempo run today even though I kneeeew I felt off, and my body finally gave me what I deserved: After 4 relaxed miles (where I felt sluggish) and 3 at tempo pace (where I felt terrible), I threw up in front of all the lovely tourists trying to sign up for helicopter rides on the Pier. (Sorry!) Then I proceeded to walk 2 miles home (it was cold) and collapse in bed, feeling more worn out than I do after long runs. 

And yeah — there’s no question this marathon plan is making me faster and stronger. My pace has improved. My endurance has improved. I haven’t gotten injured. But unfortunately, improvement in the running world doesn’t mean that running faster or longer becomes any easier. If anything, knowing I can stretch my boundaries further makes me work even harder.

Which is awesome, rewarding, and also really hard to maintain.

So long story not so short, this 16-week ride of feeling awesome! feeling terrible! with training is wearing me thin (anyone else? please?) and I am more than anxious to just race my little heart out. Luckily, it’s only 3 weeks away. So close! And to not make this a blog post from negativity hell, here is a necklace I recently found that my parents gave me back in high school  — I’m wearing it everyday until the race to hopefully send positive and fast vibes my way. Heeeere’s to hoping!


About Laura

marketing director at Possible. formerly at Greatist. Still running, finding zen, and searching for the perfect bloody mary.

Posted on April 5, 2013, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.

  1. Oh wow, I remember that, but little did I know it would be a motivational charm for you! Please know that you are an amazing runner and have dedicated many days to training for the marathon. I am so proud of you for just being you! Running or no running….but I have this feeeeeeling that you are going to do JUST FINE in Euguene, i.e. BQ!! All of your friends too!! #nopressure #iloveyou

  2. We are ALMOST there! I think (in my limited 3-marathon experience) that it is completely normal to feel like this during marathon training. Especially peak training. Especially when you have a kick ass job that you put tons of energy into. I am just itching to get there too. I don’t know why this training is different, but I have never been so ready to just RACE. I am excited/nervous, etc. but I am also just ready to get out there and see what I can do!

    P.S. I LOOOOVE your mom’s comment! And how she repeats letters like you do 🙂 AND how she also is cheering on your friends…we appreciate it 🙂

    • !!! We are so close. And now i feel better knowing I’m not going to do another 21 mile run next weekend. Let’s just hope we all don’t go crazy tapering (:

      And can’t wait for you to ROCK IT. I hope this starts your journey for loving marathons. See you soon!!

  3. love the necklace! how cool that you found it now. also, your mom hashtags. love it. 🙂

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